When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
You roll outta bed and down on your knees
And for the moment you can hardly breathe
Wondering was she really here?Is she standing in my room?
No she's not, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....
When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part
She takes you in with your crying eyes
Then all at once you have to say goodbye
Wondering could you stay my love?
Will you wake up by my side?
No she can't, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....
Oooooooooohhhhhhhhh
Now do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Would you get them if i did?
No you won't, 'cause you're gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....
When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
how many times does my blog need to die?
after posting some time ago, i thought i will already have the time to regularly update this blog with what's happening with my life. but after some time at work, my blog was dead again. i dont know why. i am not that super busy naman and now, i have the means of posting everyday. but still, my blog died.
anyway, i am resurrecting this again because i want to post a song i really love. but before that, backtrack muna with what happened during the time my blog was dead
- i have watched all UAAP games and spent a fortune if you combine all the money i spent for the tickets, dinners, etc.
- i am a bit disappointed that ateneo lost to ust. but after the mass at gesu, where the three kings and the coach gave their speech, i was quite happy na rin. ateneo, really is a community.
-i won the halloween best in costume in our department. it was an achievement i think because i only wore maong pants, poloshirt, sneakers and barong that day. i just got some tissue to tie it on my head and put some in my nose. what made me win though was the acting. hahaha. sabi nila, it looks natural daw. hahaha
-i bought my first signature perfume na. i had signature perfumes before but they were only given to me or i bought it using my parents' money. now i have my own na and i bought it using my own money.
- at last, after three tries, i was able to get into gold's gym na rin. haha
anyway, i am resurrecting this again because i want to post a song i really love. but before that, backtrack muna with what happened during the time my blog was dead
- i have watched all UAAP games and spent a fortune if you combine all the money i spent for the tickets, dinners, etc.
- i am a bit disappointed that ateneo lost to ust. but after the mass at gesu, where the three kings and the coach gave their speech, i was quite happy na rin. ateneo, really is a community.
-i won the halloween best in costume in our department. it was an achievement i think because i only wore maong pants, poloshirt, sneakers and barong that day. i just got some tissue to tie it on my head and put some in my nose. what made me win though was the acting. hahaha. sabi nila, it looks natural daw. hahaha
-i bought my first signature perfume na. i had signature perfumes before but they were only given to me or i bought it using my parents' money. now i have my own na and i bought it using my own money.
- at last, after three tries, i was able to get into gold's gym na rin. haha
Thursday, September 14, 2006
mahirap magmahal ng syota ng iba
Mahirap talagang magmahal ng syota ng iba
Hindi mo mabisita kahit okey sa kanya
Mahirap oh mahirap talaga
Maghanap ka na lang kaya ng iba
Ngunit kapag nakita ang kanyang mga mata
Nawawala ang aking pagkadismaya
Sige lang sugod lang o bahala na
Bahala na kung magkabistuhan pa
[chorus]
I-dial mo ang number sa telepono
Huwag mong ibibigay ang tunay na pangalan mo
Pag nakausap mo siya sasabihin sa’yo
Tumawag ka mamaya nanditong syota ko
Mahirap talaga ang magmahal ng iba
Oh sakit ng ulo maniwala ka
Ngunit kahit ano pang sabihin nila
Iwanan siya’y di ko magagawa
[instrumental]
Mahirap humanap ng iba
Pag tumubo ang ‘yong luha
At hahaba ang iyong mukha
At ikaw ang siyang kawawa
Iwanan siya’y di ko magagawa
Iwanan siya’y di ko magagawa
Iwanan siya’y di ko magagawa
Hindi mo mabisita kahit okey sa kanya
Mahirap oh mahirap talaga
Maghanap ka na lang kaya ng iba
Ngunit kapag nakita ang kanyang mga mata
Nawawala ang aking pagkadismaya
Sige lang sugod lang o bahala na
Bahala na kung magkabistuhan pa
[chorus]
I-dial mo ang number sa telepono
Huwag mong ibibigay ang tunay na pangalan mo
Pag nakausap mo siya sasabihin sa’yo
Tumawag ka mamaya nanditong syota ko
Mahirap talaga ang magmahal ng iba
Oh sakit ng ulo maniwala ka
Ngunit kahit ano pang sabihin nila
Iwanan siya’y di ko magagawa
[instrumental]
Mahirap humanap ng iba
Pag tumubo ang ‘yong luha
At hahaba ang iyong mukha
At ikaw ang siyang kawawa
Iwanan siya’y di ko magagawa
Iwanan siya’y di ko magagawa
Iwanan siya’y di ko magagawa
Monday, September 04, 2006
wala lang 05
- watched uaap games last saturday. ateneo juniors won over upis. one game na lang, sweep na ang juniors.
- ateneo seniors also won against nu. with the loss of adamson against ust and the win of up against ue, we are now sure of the top spot while ue clinches the second spot.
- i love the kami napo muna album except the di na natuto part. nawala ang tono.
- grabe ang team gimik last friday. 3am na ako nakauwi. pero masaya ang bowling sessions.
- i miss the bowling sessions that i used to have with my soluziona friends. i miss the morning break kwentuhan, i miss the lunch breaks, i miss the LG-bashing, and i miss the afternoon breaks with the fishes. i miss my friends there. :(
- ateneo seniors also won against nu. with the loss of adamson against ust and the win of up against ue, we are now sure of the top spot while ue clinches the second spot.
- i love the kami napo muna album except the di na natuto part. nawala ang tono.
- grabe ang team gimik last friday. 3am na ako nakauwi. pero masaya ang bowling sessions.
- i miss the bowling sessions that i used to have with my soluziona friends. i miss the morning break kwentuhan, i miss the lunch breaks, i miss the LG-bashing, and i miss the afternoon breaks with the fishes. i miss my friends there. :(
Thursday, August 31, 2006
2 nights with paul trainer and business calls
last monday, kd, ed, macky, lex and i treated Paul Trainer to a dinner at grilla in promenade. Paul is a finsys folk based in newcastle, uk who happened to visit the manila site. anyway, we ate for 30 minutes and then because of a critical issue with one of the production systems, kd, paul, and ed spent 1.5 hours inside the car for a conference call. it was supposedly a fun night but it turned out to be a wicked night for all of us.
last night, my manager, the treasury team and the perf team again hosted a dinner for paul. we had dinner at misato in metrowalk and then afterwards, we got ourselves drunk at dencios. we actually asked him to try sisig and chicharon. but before that, we had two calls, the first one at 9pm regarding the issues last monday and the other one was the performance global team meeting.
it was a fun night.
last night, my manager, the treasury team and the perf team again hosted a dinner for paul. we had dinner at misato in metrowalk and then afterwards, we got ourselves drunk at dencios. we actually asked him to try sisig and chicharon. but before that, we had two calls, the first one at 9pm regarding the issues last monday and the other one was the performance global team meeting.
it was a fun night.
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
philo reflection
share ko lang. baka magamit na resource ng mga philo students. semi-fiction yung experience part. this paper got an A from Mr. Hermida.
Reflection on Aquinas
A human action is characterized by an action that is chosen by the will that is guided by the reason. What separates man from an animal is our capacity to be rational beings. While animals act based on their instincts, we, human beings, should act based on our free will and sound reasoning.
On this note, St. Thomas Aquinas states that the ingredients of man’s moral experiences are provided by its human nature. The fact that human beings have bodies makes them capable of certain acts. His senses become the vehicle for his appetite and passion. However, while these appetites and passion have a direct control over the lives of the animals, human beings have the capacity to control these appetites and passion. Aquinas emphasizes that in man, the will, in collaboration with the power of reason, consummates what is called the human act. And this will is the agency with which inclines man towards the achievement of what is good.
I would like to share an experience that demonstrates St. Thomas Aquinas’ point.
Last week can be considered as one of my hell weeks in Ateneo. To be exact, it may be considered as the “hellest” week, if ever there is a term such as that. Three papers, two long exams, and a thesis report are due that week, not to mention the responsibilities I had to assume as an organization leader. My groupmates in one subject, which happen to be my closest buddies, decided to meet Monday morning, eight o’clock to be exact, for we all don’t have classes until three thirty in the afternoon.at 8:00, all of us were already in the meeting place, except for two people. We waited until 9:00, but still, they weren’t there. They arrived at 10:30.
Of course one would expect us to be really pissed off because of their tardiness. I mean we could have done a lot of things in those two and a half hours that we wasted waiting for them. But when they arrived, what irritated me the most is when they told us that they were late because they played DoTA, an online game and enjoyed it and did not notice of the time. This is the third time that they were late in an appointment just because they were playing DoTA. They even added, “Sorry ha, tao lang kami. Nagkakamali din kami.” And because of my anger, I replied madly, “Ganun ba? Dapat pala nagkamali na lang din kami. Tao rin kasi kami. Pero pinili namin na hindi magkamali kasi nagpapakatao kami. Nag-iisip kami.”
I have nothing against DoTA. I mean playing DoTA in itself doesn’t constitute a bad act. However, the context must also be taken into consideration. Playing DoTA and enjoying every bit of it while making your groupmates wait, wasting their precious and priceless time, and forgetting about an undertaking you have committed into makes it a bad option.
What made me, and perhaps other people, even agrier was that they were trying to rationalize by saying that they are human and they make mistakes. I admit that being human and having a human body that experiences the world in its entirety makes us capable of making mistakes. But being human is not an excuse for an action that is not human in the first place. By an action that is human, I mean that the action must be a choice that is made and that choice must be guided by reason. And in their case, reason, clearly was nowhere to be found. I, myself, love playing computer games but because my reason told me that I have an appointment to make, I chose the other option of not playing and meeting my groupmates. They, on the other hand, controlled by their appetite and passion, continued playing. And that is not a human action because humans are capable of controlling these urges because of reason, a characteristic that is bestowed only upon us.
It is so easy to become human. However, acting like one seems so difficult for a lot of people. I would like to translate it into Filipino for it is more powerful a language. “Madaling maging tao. Mahirap magpakatao.”
Sensuality, desires, and passions are part of us as human beings. They, in themselves, are not bad. As embodied spirits, we also have the need to nurture them for having contact with the world entails being in touch with these things. We are not angels who do not have bodies and no experience of the bodily life. For if we were, then, we would not have the need for sensuality and appetite. However, these are not all that we are. Certainly, we are more that sensual creatures for if we were just sensual creatures, then we would have no difference with the animals. This is because animals cannot control their urges and desires, but rather, they are controlled by their urges and desires. And if a man begins to act based on sensuality alone, then he has no right to call it a human action. And perhaps he should think again if he is indeed a human because human beings were granted the special power of controlling their sensuality and appetite with the aid of reason.
Making mistakes is a human capacity. However, preventing oneself from making mistakes is yet another human capability. Human beings are gifted just by the mere fact of being humans. However, it still is up to us whether we use all of these potentials or not. Trying to reach the fullest potential of becoming human by doing what is human is a very difficult thing to do. However, it is not impossible. Trying in itself already makes us human. What more if everything that we do, would be human—that is making choices by the aid of the will that is guided by the reason?
The road to becoming fully a human is indeed rocky and difficult to traverse. But however it maybe difficult, we, as human beings would and should certainly want to achieve our full humanity. And I think that we can start our long and difficult journey by making the right decisions today. Whenever we are faced with a decision that we should make, we should try to weigh things out the best way possible. We should try to balance our sensuality and appetite with our will and reason for us to become a real human for we are not angels who do not have sensuality and appetite nor animals who do not have will and reason.
I am a man. And I am capable of using my will and reason without sacrificing my sensuality and pleasure. I am a man. And I am capable of satisfying my sensuality and appetites with the use of my will and reason. I am a man and I can act like a man. And I can do this by not acting just based on instinct. Using my will and reason for every decision that I will make would be good. And enhancing my knowledge will be of greater use for me to make more human acts. I would like to end this by saying that I will try to do things that are good by trying to weigh every option with the use of my knowledge. But however vast my knowledge is, I am still capable of making mistakes. So I should not only rely on my will and knowledge but rely on my God and always ask for his guidance so that I will know what the good to be done is and the evil to be avoided. For everything has its limitation, including our knowledge. But not my God.
Reflection on Aquinas
A human action is characterized by an action that is chosen by the will that is guided by the reason. What separates man from an animal is our capacity to be rational beings. While animals act based on their instincts, we, human beings, should act based on our free will and sound reasoning.
On this note, St. Thomas Aquinas states that the ingredients of man’s moral experiences are provided by its human nature. The fact that human beings have bodies makes them capable of certain acts. His senses become the vehicle for his appetite and passion. However, while these appetites and passion have a direct control over the lives of the animals, human beings have the capacity to control these appetites and passion. Aquinas emphasizes that in man, the will, in collaboration with the power of reason, consummates what is called the human act. And this will is the agency with which inclines man towards the achievement of what is good.
I would like to share an experience that demonstrates St. Thomas Aquinas’ point.
Last week can be considered as one of my hell weeks in Ateneo. To be exact, it may be considered as the “hellest” week, if ever there is a term such as that. Three papers, two long exams, and a thesis report are due that week, not to mention the responsibilities I had to assume as an organization leader. My groupmates in one subject, which happen to be my closest buddies, decided to meet Monday morning, eight o’clock to be exact, for we all don’t have classes until three thirty in the afternoon.at 8:00, all of us were already in the meeting place, except for two people. We waited until 9:00, but still, they weren’t there. They arrived at 10:30.
Of course one would expect us to be really pissed off because of their tardiness. I mean we could have done a lot of things in those two and a half hours that we wasted waiting for them. But when they arrived, what irritated me the most is when they told us that they were late because they played DoTA, an online game and enjoyed it and did not notice of the time. This is the third time that they were late in an appointment just because they were playing DoTA. They even added, “Sorry ha, tao lang kami. Nagkakamali din kami.” And because of my anger, I replied madly, “Ganun ba? Dapat pala nagkamali na lang din kami. Tao rin kasi kami. Pero pinili namin na hindi magkamali kasi nagpapakatao kami. Nag-iisip kami.”
I have nothing against DoTA. I mean playing DoTA in itself doesn’t constitute a bad act. However, the context must also be taken into consideration. Playing DoTA and enjoying every bit of it while making your groupmates wait, wasting their precious and priceless time, and forgetting about an undertaking you have committed into makes it a bad option.
What made me, and perhaps other people, even agrier was that they were trying to rationalize by saying that they are human and they make mistakes. I admit that being human and having a human body that experiences the world in its entirety makes us capable of making mistakes. But being human is not an excuse for an action that is not human in the first place. By an action that is human, I mean that the action must be a choice that is made and that choice must be guided by reason. And in their case, reason, clearly was nowhere to be found. I, myself, love playing computer games but because my reason told me that I have an appointment to make, I chose the other option of not playing and meeting my groupmates. They, on the other hand, controlled by their appetite and passion, continued playing. And that is not a human action because humans are capable of controlling these urges because of reason, a characteristic that is bestowed only upon us.
It is so easy to become human. However, acting like one seems so difficult for a lot of people. I would like to translate it into Filipino for it is more powerful a language. “Madaling maging tao. Mahirap magpakatao.”
Sensuality, desires, and passions are part of us as human beings. They, in themselves, are not bad. As embodied spirits, we also have the need to nurture them for having contact with the world entails being in touch with these things. We are not angels who do not have bodies and no experience of the bodily life. For if we were, then, we would not have the need for sensuality and appetite. However, these are not all that we are. Certainly, we are more that sensual creatures for if we were just sensual creatures, then we would have no difference with the animals. This is because animals cannot control their urges and desires, but rather, they are controlled by their urges and desires. And if a man begins to act based on sensuality alone, then he has no right to call it a human action. And perhaps he should think again if he is indeed a human because human beings were granted the special power of controlling their sensuality and appetite with the aid of reason.
Making mistakes is a human capacity. However, preventing oneself from making mistakes is yet another human capability. Human beings are gifted just by the mere fact of being humans. However, it still is up to us whether we use all of these potentials or not. Trying to reach the fullest potential of becoming human by doing what is human is a very difficult thing to do. However, it is not impossible. Trying in itself already makes us human. What more if everything that we do, would be human—that is making choices by the aid of the will that is guided by the reason?
The road to becoming fully a human is indeed rocky and difficult to traverse. But however it maybe difficult, we, as human beings would and should certainly want to achieve our full humanity. And I think that we can start our long and difficult journey by making the right decisions today. Whenever we are faced with a decision that we should make, we should try to weigh things out the best way possible. We should try to balance our sensuality and appetite with our will and reason for us to become a real human for we are not angels who do not have sensuality and appetite nor animals who do not have will and reason.
I am a man. And I am capable of using my will and reason without sacrificing my sensuality and pleasure. I am a man. And I am capable of satisfying my sensuality and appetites with the use of my will and reason. I am a man and I can act like a man. And I can do this by not acting just based on instinct. Using my will and reason for every decision that I will make would be good. And enhancing my knowledge will be of greater use for me to make more human acts. I would like to end this by saying that I will try to do things that are good by trying to weigh every option with the use of my knowledge. But however vast my knowledge is, I am still capable of making mistakes. So I should not only rely on my will and knowledge but rely on my God and always ask for his guidance so that I will know what the good to be done is and the evil to be avoided. For everything has its limitation, including our knowledge. But not my God.
wala lang 04
- i really miss school...
- kainis. ust won against ateneo. anyway, sana magkita ulit sa F4.
- i really miss her. sana we could go out again.
- honestly, nababagalan ako sa progress ng training ko.
- got a copy of kami napo muna album. astig. kaya lang mas maganda talaga yung original version.
- somebody stole my lan cable.. arggghhh.
- may utang pa pala akong c2 sa manager ko. talo ako sa bowling.
- sana magkaroon ulit ng ateneo cs 2006 reunion.
- binasa ko ang buong blog ko. ang say magreminisce. sana lang hindi sya naging dead ng matagal para mas maraming memories. alam nyo naman, may memory gap na ako. hahaha
- miss ko na ang voltes team (except phi)
- miss ko na ang mga org activities
- at totoo pala na the more your income, mas marami ang expense.
- naiinis ako sa withholding tax.
- kainis. ust won against ateneo. anyway, sana magkita ulit sa F4.
- i really miss her. sana we could go out again.
- honestly, nababagalan ako sa progress ng training ko.
- got a copy of kami napo muna album. astig. kaya lang mas maganda talaga yung original version.
- somebody stole my lan cable.. arggghhh.
- may utang pa pala akong c2 sa manager ko. talo ako sa bowling.
- sana magkaroon ulit ng ateneo cs 2006 reunion.
- binasa ko ang buong blog ko. ang say magreminisce. sana lang hindi sya naging dead ng matagal para mas maraming memories. alam nyo naman, may memory gap na ako. hahaha
- miss ko na ang voltes team (except phi)
- miss ko na ang mga org activities
- at totoo pala na the more your income, mas marami ang expense.
- naiinis ako sa withholding tax.
Saturday, August 12, 2006
Torpedo
haaay....
im confused...
i wasnt able to sleep last night....
i dont know what i feel...
ive been in love with this girl for four years already but i havent done a thing for her. yes, you can call me torpe as much as you want but i think that its true. imagine, being with the girl for four years and making no moves at all? geesh.
im really in love with her but i cant make a move since we are really good friends. i am afraid that if i start to court her, one of the following might happen:
- she might think that i befriended her because i have bad intentions for her
- she might be "ilang" with me and i might lose our friendship
- she might think im crazy
but thats not just the problem. i dont know how to court. i dont know how to show my affection for her. and i think that that is my biggest problem.
anyway, i tried to suppress this feeling i have because i dont wanna lose our friendship and eventually, lose her. but every time that i see her with another guy, i really get jealous. i have actually talked with her best friend about this and she would give me nice ideas. problem is, im just plain torpe.
i really hate it when i learned that someone from work is making some moves on her. i thought i already lost my feelings for her since we havent seen or heard from each other for some months already. but i was wrong. i am still in love with her. i cant even tell my bestfriend about this dahil baka pagtawanan nya lang ako. i dunno why im thinking and feeling this way. i think i need professional help.
anyway, this song is for her:
Pasensya na
Kung ako ay
Di nagsasalita
Hindi ko kayang sabihin
Ang aking nadarama
Huwag mo na akong pilitin
Ako ay walang lakas ng loob
Para tumanggi
Walang dapat ipagtaka
Ako ay ipinanganak
Na torpe
Sa ayaw at hindi
Pasensya na
Kung ikaw ay naiinis
Ayoko na sanang
Pag-usapan pa
Kung gusto mo ay
Manood ka na lang ng sine
Di ba huwebes ngayon
Baka may bago nang palabas
Huwag mo na akong pilitin
Ako ay walang lakas ng loob
Para tumanggi
Walang dapat ipagtaka
Ako ay ipinanganak
Na torpe
Diyan sa tabi-tabi
Pasensya na
Kung ako ay naiiyak
Mababaw lang talaga ang luha ko
Di ko mapigil
Ang aking damdamin
Puede bang umalis ka na
Tumutunog na ang beeper mo
im confused...
i wasnt able to sleep last night....
i dont know what i feel...
ive been in love with this girl for four years already but i havent done a thing for her. yes, you can call me torpe as much as you want but i think that its true. imagine, being with the girl for four years and making no moves at all? geesh.
im really in love with her but i cant make a move since we are really good friends. i am afraid that if i start to court her, one of the following might happen:
- she might think that i befriended her because i have bad intentions for her
- she might be "ilang" with me and i might lose our friendship
- she might think im crazy
but thats not just the problem. i dont know how to court. i dont know how to show my affection for her. and i think that that is my biggest problem.
anyway, i tried to suppress this feeling i have because i dont wanna lose our friendship and eventually, lose her. but every time that i see her with another guy, i really get jealous. i have actually talked with her best friend about this and she would give me nice ideas. problem is, im just plain torpe.
i really hate it when i learned that someone from work is making some moves on her. i thought i already lost my feelings for her since we havent seen or heard from each other for some months already. but i was wrong. i am still in love with her. i cant even tell my bestfriend about this dahil baka pagtawanan nya lang ako. i dunno why im thinking and feeling this way. i think i need professional help.
anyway, this song is for her:
Pasensya na
Kung ako ay
Di nagsasalita
Hindi ko kayang sabihin
Ang aking nadarama
Huwag mo na akong pilitin
Ako ay walang lakas ng loob
Para tumanggi
Walang dapat ipagtaka
Ako ay ipinanganak
Na torpe
Sa ayaw at hindi
Pasensya na
Kung ikaw ay naiinis
Ayoko na sanang
Pag-usapan pa
Kung gusto mo ay
Manood ka na lang ng sine
Di ba huwebes ngayon
Baka may bago nang palabas
Huwag mo na akong pilitin
Ako ay walang lakas ng loob
Para tumanggi
Walang dapat ipagtaka
Ako ay ipinanganak
Na torpe
Diyan sa tabi-tabi
Pasensya na
Kung ako ay naiiyak
Mababaw lang talaga ang luha ko
Di ko mapigil
Ang aking damdamin
Puede bang umalis ka na
Tumutunog na ang beeper mo
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
Resurrected (again)
so what? my blog's been dead for a semester.
its time for me to update this...
i wish i were a student again... i miss some things that i was able to do when i was still a student like:
1. cut classes
2. watching movies every week
3. waking up late
4. org activities
5. teacher-bashing (although i still get to bash a lot of people around)
6. hang out with the voltes team (except phi)
7. hang out sa faura steps
8. kulitin si ate grace, ate lisa, at ms mel.
9. stroll along katipunan
10. ride mrt and lrt2.
so wats up with me?
one week after grad, i worked with soluziona as a consultant. people there are great.
but after four months, i resigned.
now, im with HP already.
i dont know why but i really love this song.
"Because Of You"
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myselfCause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of youI learned to play
on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of youI find it hard
to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of youI
am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your painAnd now
I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
Idon't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of youI
am afraid
Because of you
Because of you
its time for me to update this...
i wish i were a student again... i miss some things that i was able to do when i was still a student like:
1. cut classes
2. watching movies every week
3. waking up late
4. org activities
5. teacher-bashing (although i still get to bash a lot of people around)
6. hang out with the voltes team (except phi)
7. hang out sa faura steps
8. kulitin si ate grace, ate lisa, at ms mel.
9. stroll along katipunan
10. ride mrt and lrt2.
so wats up with me?
one week after grad, i worked with soluziona as a consultant. people there are great.
but after four months, i resigned.
now, im with HP already.
i dont know why but i really love this song.
"Because Of You"
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myselfCause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of youI learned to play
on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of youI find it hard
to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of youI
am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your painAnd now
I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
Idon't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of youI
am afraid
Because of you
Because of you
Thursday, January 19, 2006
part two
this morning, while riding the fx again ( fx stories na ito ...) i heard a song that somehow i can relate to. i've never heard of that song before but when i heard it, it was really about me. hehe. anyway, this is the lyrics of that song.
Lagi mo nlng ako dinededma
-Rocksteady
* mahal kita pero di mo lang alam
Hindi mo alam kasi hindi mo naman ako tinitignan
Ayaw mo naman itanong sakin kasi baka nga naman hindi naman ikaw
At hindi ko rin naman sayo sasabihin kasi ayoko pa sa ngayon na manligaw
Mahal kita pero hindi nga lang halata
Hindi halata kasi wala naman akong ginagawa
Hindi ako kumikibo hindi ako nagsasalita wala
Pero hindi ako torpe
Hindi ko lang talaga masabi sayo ng harapan
Mahal kita pero dehins mo pa rin ramdam
Hindi mo ko titignan di rin kita titgnan
Lagi mo lang akong pakikiramdaman lagi rin kitang pakikiramdaman
At araw araw tayong magdededmahan
Hanggang sa tayo ay magkabistuhan
Pero ngayong malapit nang matapos ang kanta ko
Nais kong magkaalaman na
Nais kong ako na rin ang magsabi sayo ng harapan
Kasi alam kong doon din naman ang tuloy nyan
At dalawa din lang naman ang posibleng sagot dyan oo o hindi
Kaya eto na sasabihin ko na para matapos na
At hindi na magka-tsismisan pa
Sasabihin ko na para wala nang problema
At para hindi na rin kayong lahat nabibitin pa
(repeat *)
Lagi mo nlng ako dinededma
-Rocksteady
* mahal kita pero di mo lang alam
Hindi mo alam kasi hindi mo naman ako tinitignan
Ayaw mo naman itanong sakin kasi baka nga naman hindi naman ikaw
At hindi ko rin naman sayo sasabihin kasi ayoko pa sa ngayon na manligaw
Mahal kita pero hindi nga lang halata
Hindi halata kasi wala naman akong ginagawa
Hindi ako kumikibo hindi ako nagsasalita wala
Pero hindi ako torpe
Hindi ko lang talaga masabi sayo ng harapan
Mahal kita pero dehins mo pa rin ramdam
Hindi mo ko titignan di rin kita titgnan
Lagi mo lang akong pakikiramdaman lagi rin kitang pakikiramdaman
At araw araw tayong magdededmahan
Hanggang sa tayo ay magkabistuhan
Pero ngayong malapit nang matapos ang kanta ko
Nais kong magkaalaman na
Nais kong ako na rin ang magsabi sayo ng harapan
Kasi alam kong doon din naman ang tuloy nyan
At dalawa din lang naman ang posibleng sagot dyan oo o hindi
Kaya eto na sasabihin ko na para matapos na
At hindi na magka-tsismisan pa
Sasabihin ko na para wala nang problema
At para hindi na rin kayong lahat nabibitin pa
(repeat *)
Songs of my life
last sunday, i was over at vannie's house to make our thesis( supposedly) but it turned out that we just watched tv and then i felt asleep. In ASAP, the song Never get over you was sang. And then we were both looking for the title of the koreanovela that used this song as its theme song. Yun, after 2 days of hearing it over the radio while riding the fx going to school, naalala ko na. Love in the City pala. hehe. :P
I hear you're taking the town again
Havin' a good time
With all your good-time friends
I don't think that you think of me
You're on your own now
And I'm alone and free
I know that I should get on with my life
But a life lived without you
Could never be right
Chorus:
As long as the stars shine down
From the heavens
Long as the rivers run
To the sea
I'll never get over you
Getting over me
I try to smile so the hurt won't show
Tell everybody
That I was glad to see you go
But the tears just won't go away
(Won't go away..)
Loneliness found me
Looks like it's here to stay
I know that I oughta find someone new
But all I find is myself
Always thinkin' of you
Chorus
Oh!
No matter what I do
Each night's a lifetime to live through
I can't go on like this
(I need your touch)
You're the only one I'll ever love)
Oh, oh.. ah....
Ooh.....
Ooh.....
Ooh.....
And as
Long as the stars shine down
From the heavens
Long as the rivers run
To the sea
I'll never get over you
Getting over me
I'll never get over you
Getting over
Never get over you...
Getting over
I'll never get over you
Getting over me
I hear you're taking the town again
Havin' a good time
With all your good-time friends
I don't think that you think of me
You're on your own now
And I'm alone and free
I know that I should get on with my life
But a life lived without you
Could never be right
Chorus:
As long as the stars shine down
From the heavens
Long as the rivers run
To the sea
I'll never get over you
Getting over me
I try to smile so the hurt won't show
Tell everybody
That I was glad to see you go
But the tears just won't go away
(Won't go away..)
Loneliness found me
Looks like it's here to stay
I know that I oughta find someone new
But all I find is myself
Always thinkin' of you
Chorus
Oh!
No matter what I do
Each night's a lifetime to live through
I can't go on like this
(I need your touch)
You're the only one I'll ever love)
Oh, oh.. ah....
Ooh.....
Ooh.....
Ooh.....
And as
Long as the stars shine down
From the heavens
Long as the rivers run
To the sea
I'll never get over you
Getting over me
I'll never get over you
Getting over
Never get over you...
Getting over
I'll never get over you
Getting over me
Saturday, January 14, 2006
Sa May Bintana
i heard this song over the radio while i was riding an fx going to school. it really captured my attention and i thought that it was really a great song
Sa May Bintana
Lagi na lang akong dumudungaw sa may bintana
Upang masulyapan kahit anino mo man lamang
Nagbabakasakaling ikaw ay lumingon
Ano kaya ito aking nadarama
Araw araw ako'y naghihintay sa may bintana
Nananalangin sana'y hindi ka pa nagdaraan
Parang bumibilis tibok nitong puso
Pagibig ba itong aking nadarama
Napupuyat sa ka iisip, nababato't naiinip
Laging laman nang panaginip
Di kayang magtiis isang araw sa may bintana
Nang di kita masulyapan makindatan man lamang
Tumutigil buong mundo sa tuwing ika'y magdaraan
Araw araw ako'y naghihintay sa may bintana
Nananalangin sana'y hindi ka pa nagdaraan
Parang bumibilis tibok nitong puso
Pagibig ba itong aking nadarama
Napupuyat sa ka iisip, nababato't naiinip
Laging laman nang panaginip
Di kayang magtiis isang araw sa may bintana
Nang di kita masulyapan makindatan man lamang
Pumupigil buong mundo sa tuwing ika'y magdaraan
Sa May Bintana
Lagi na lang akong dumudungaw sa may bintana
Upang masulyapan kahit anino mo man lamang
Nagbabakasakaling ikaw ay lumingon
Ano kaya ito aking nadarama
Araw araw ako'y naghihintay sa may bintana
Nananalangin sana'y hindi ka pa nagdaraan
Parang bumibilis tibok nitong puso
Pagibig ba itong aking nadarama
Napupuyat sa ka iisip, nababato't naiinip
Laging laman nang panaginip
Di kayang magtiis isang araw sa may bintana
Nang di kita masulyapan makindatan man lamang
Tumutigil buong mundo sa tuwing ika'y magdaraan
Araw araw ako'y naghihintay sa may bintana
Nananalangin sana'y hindi ka pa nagdaraan
Parang bumibilis tibok nitong puso
Pagibig ba itong aking nadarama
Napupuyat sa ka iisip, nababato't naiinip
Laging laman nang panaginip
Di kayang magtiis isang araw sa may bintana
Nang di kita masulyapan makindatan man lamang
Pumupigil buong mundo sa tuwing ika'y magdaraan
Thursday, January 12, 2006
Rants
Life is full of pain and suffering. Everything that we do involves pain. That life is full of pain is already a universally-accepted truth. From the moment we were conceived until we die, everyone experiences pain. And what causes these pains that we get along with in life is the fact the we desire infinitely. We get something but we strive to get more. And because we want to get more, we work harder, and in the end, suffer greater. But Buddha points out that the only way to end these pain is to give up our desires. And in the end, after we experience the eight-fold path can we only experience real happiness.
In life, people of today preoccupy themselves with a lot of things so that they would feel a great sense of being. Most of us believe that what defines our humanity is how much we have done in the past, how much we are doing in the present, and how much we are planning to do in the future. there is an emphasis on doing rather than being. We feel a great sense of urgency to keep ourselves busy so that we could experience a great sense of worthiness. But in the end people would complain that life has been very difficult and painful for them. What we do not realize is the fact that what makes life difficult is our desires. Our desire to work infinitely to please everybody makes life harder for us. (Or maybe we don't have the time to reflect because we are so preoccupied with busyness?) Pain comes from not being contented with life alone but rather asking more of what life has to offer. We search for infinite capabilities though we are finite beings. We ought to live like we will not die but in the end we will feel that we are dying without having lived.
What we are can never be defined by HOW MUCH we have done but by WHAT we have done. It is not a matter of quantity but of quality. Choosing the good in everything that we do is one thing and is already enough. Exerting a lot of effort to make people appreciate you for all your deeds would be an entirely different thing.
It is not bad to desire. In fact it is what keeps us focused and directed in our life. Yes, because of these desires we experience pain but it is also essential to our life. And in our desire to do the good we experience pain—a needed pain.
Giving up our desires—the unnecessary ones, will make our life a lot less complicated, and a lot more enjoyable. Because when we give up our unneeded wants and when we start to not preoccupy ourselves with a lot of work can we only see the beauty of our life and of our world. Then we can reflect on things which are essential to us—on doing what is right.
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