Torpedo

haaay....
im confused...
i wasnt able to sleep last night....
i dont know what i feel...

ive been in love with this girl for four years already but i havent done a thing for her. yes, you can call me torpe as much as you want but i think that its true. imagine, being with the girl for four years and making no moves at all? geesh.
im really in love with her but i cant make a move since we are really good friends. i am afraid that if i start to court her, one of the following might happen:
- she might think that i befriended her because i have bad intentions for her
- she might be "ilang" with me and i might lose our friendship
- she might think im crazy

but thats not just the problem. i dont know how to court. i dont know how to show my affection for her. and i think that that is my biggest problem.

anyway, i tried to suppress this feeling i have because i dont wanna lose our friendship and eventually, lose her. but every time that i see her with another guy, i really get jealous. i have actually talked with her best friend about this and she would give me nice ideas. problem is, im just plain torpe.

i really hate it when i learned that someone from work is making some moves on her. i thought i already lost my feelings for her since we havent seen or heard from each other for some months already. but i was wrong. i am still in love with her. i cant even tell my bestfriend about this dahil baka pagtawanan nya lang ako. i dunno why im thinking and feeling this way. i think i need professional help.

anyway, this song is for her:

Pasensya na
Kung ako ay
Di nagsasalita
Hindi ko kayang sabihin
Ang aking nadarama

Huwag mo na akong pilitin
Ako ay walang lakas ng loob
Para tumanggi
Walang dapat ipagtaka
Ako ay ipinanganak
Na torpe
Sa ayaw at hindi

Pasensya na
Kung ikaw ay naiinis
Ayoko na sanang
Pag-usapan pa
Kung gusto mo ay
Manood ka na lang ng sine
Di ba huwebes ngayon
Baka may bago nang palabas

Huwag mo na akong pilitin
Ako ay walang lakas ng loob
Para tumanggi
Walang dapat ipagtaka
Ako ay ipinanganak
Na torpe
Diyan sa tabi-tabi

Pasensya na
Kung ako ay naiiyak
Mababaw lang talaga ang luha ko
Di ko mapigil
Ang aking damdamin
Puede bang umalis ka na
Tumutunog na ang beeper mo